What If

June 1990


What if I let the walls down
And let my feelings show
Will you hold me through the crying,
Or would you be afraid and go?

What if the curtain fell down
And you saw my naked soul
Would you stay until tomorrow,
Or say you'll call me as you go?

What if I let you touch me
In your honest, open way
Would you hurt me like the others,
Turn around and walk away?

What if our lives were different
And we never suffered pain,
Would I have ever built a wall
To save myself from shame?

My curtain is a sacred mask
To hide myself from me
I stand behind it safely
And pretend no one can see

Deep inside I want to break out
And be more like a kid -
Curious, trusting, loving
What if I really did?