Age 53

Constant Change.
Continuous Transition.
My life is an oxymoron.

11.22.2010

November 8, 2010

   My life is very unpredictable right now. I have been babysitting or substitute teaching or volunteering or meeting new people and trying new things. I'm scraping by financially but blossoming in other areas. Not sure what the future will bring. The self-help book I'm reading says it all: I Could Do Anything If I Only Knew What it Was by Barbara Sher.

To Discovery!

Diana

Mrs. Heal's Class

After subbing yesterday. 10/20/10


Mrs. Heal, she has appeal.
She is a fifth grade teacher.
She's married to a man named Doug.
Her father was a preacher.


Her classroom theme's dramatic flair
Includes a tall director's chair.
Curtains frame a cork board stage
Where student art is now displayed.


An overhead projector shines
On learning worksheets and outlines.
She also has a little bell
When new directions she must tell.


Tickets, time, and other prizes
Ensure good work in all arises.
We love Mrs. Heal for her behavior,
She follows the teaching of our savior.

Intrepid

My first song. 1966


Intrepid's the sweetest dog
Anybody's ever owned
He's the greatest dog
Anybody's ever knowned

He don't like cats
And we know that that's

The TRUTH!

Widow's Lullaby

1990

* Tune of Rockabye Baby

When you first loved me,

Life was so sweet.

When we got married, 

My life was complete.

When we had children,

I loved you so.

My life was so perfect

Why did you go?

Never Be Alone Again

1996


I was alone
I came all the way to here
Far from all those honest fears
To have a home

But then
I lost the happiness I'd found
It disappeared without a sound
And here I am

Wishing for those happy days

When I found his love
When he held my hand
When the preacher said
We were wife and man

How I miss the way
He looked at me
How I miss the way
We used to be

Now I'm alone
Even though we share a bed
Even though he hasn't said
He wants to go

'Cause now
He never wants to talk to me
He never wants to hear or see
Of how

I wish for those happy days

When I found his love
When his eyes met mine
When I never thought
Our love would die

When I thought
He was the only one
And I was sure
I'd never be alone

Again

Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda

1997


Shoulda, coulda, woulda been in love with you:
Shoulda taken what you offered
Coulda dropped my stubborn pride
Woulda been the one you wanted
To be there by your side.

If only I had listened to my heart and not my head
And paid no mind to what it was my friends and family said.
I shoulda loved you like you wanted
'Cause what you offered me
Was quiet strength, a solid faith, assured loyalty.

Why did I think your tenderness was a sign of being weak?
A gentle voice doesn't have a thing to do with being meek.
I coulda noticed on my own
That my pride was not at stake
It was me you really cared about and loved for my own sake.

But I found steadfastness boring
Thought your passion was not strong
Thought what I wanted was excitement
Could not have been more wrong.

Shoulda, coulda, woulda been in love with you
Shoulda taken what you offered
A love that would be true.
Coulda dropped my pride off somewhere else
And listened when you said, "Please look inside your heart and stop thinking with your head."
Woulda made a great big difference
In my life 'cause now I see
Your caring and devotion are what I really need.

Shoulda, coulda, woulda been in love with you
Shoulda taken what you offered
Coulda dropped my stubborn pride
Woulda been the one you wanted
To be there by your side.